heartsarecalling

i am frustrated that the things that are expected out of me always seem to be endless.

i am frustrated that my parents never seem to be happy with my achievements.

i am frustrated that my family see me as too old for young but too young to be an adult.

i am frustrated that my life is not dictated by me but rather by others.

i am frustrated that people's opinions matter so much to me.

i am frustrated that my parents seem to criticize everything about me.

i am frustrated that i have grown more and more insecure.

i am frustrated that to me i don't seem good enough.

i am frustrated that the people who i thought were the closest to me aren't anymore.

i am frustrated that i feel so lonely in a world so full of people.

i am frustrated that everytime i seem to go out, i get sunburnt.

i am frustrated that people won't let me take control of my life.

i am frustrated that people have this image of me which they think i am.

i am frustrated that my life isn't what i imagined.

i am frustrated that sometimes i seem to be invisible.

i am frustrated that in my opinion, people tend to gang up on me.

i am frustrated that my life seems so pointless.

i am frustrated that this my first post in 25 days.

i am frustrated that people don't tend to care.

i am frustrated that my life revolves around what people want out of me.

i am frustrated that my life is planned out by others.

and i am frustrated that this is the only way to get it off my chest.

listening to: how to save a life by the fray

well, i was in my family's car driving back from melbourne today then something popped into my head. i was on this long stretch of road and then a thought came inside my head. a road can symbolise someone's life. one single road can stretched for a long period of time or end suddenly and that is like our lives now. you see people living for a immense long period of time and they would represent a highway or freeway. while those who die suddenly like babies from SIDS then would represent a short road that you find around suburbs and citys.

one road connects or joins onto another road. one road leads to another one connecting the two for life. this would represent marriage or even friendships. roads can be destroyed and taken away like a friendship can slowly crumble if we don't work or appreciate them. they can be connected forever like in a happy marriage or in a life-long friendship.

from one road, another road comes off it then another then another. this is just like a family. someone meets someone and they decide to get marriage and come together. they start to have offsprings and their offsprings have more offsprings. and this is shown in our street directory. one road leads to another which leads to another.

and finally, all roads must end no matter how long they go for. a road ends just like our lives do but we accept that and live our lives the best as possible as do roads. they service us the best they can before they need to be replaced.

so that is my thought. my analogy for life is: a life is like a road. it connects onto others. it is the root for others. it can go for as long as possible or as short as needed. and must come to an end.

well, i must leave now.

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